Welcome to the Paradox of the Meaning of Nothing, where the meaning of life is optional, but the meaning of nothing is a given.
It's a state of mind where the meaning of life is optional, but the meaning of nothing is always a given. Think of it like a choose-your-own-adventure book, but instead of choosing your own adventure, you're stuck with the meaning of nothing.
Sorry, friend, you're stuck in this paradox for life. But don't worry, you can always choose to just pretend that you're not thinking about it. Or, you know, just stare at this wall for a while.
Read the full guide on how to deal with the meaninglessness of existence.