You're stuck in this existential crisis, and you're not sure how you ended up here.
Seriously though, you're on Phase 1: Therapy, where the stakes are high, but the snacks are free.
Take a deep breath, and let's start with the basics.
Identify Your ProblemsDevelop Your PlanPut It All Together (Sort Of)
Note: Phase 1: Therapy is not actually a thing. But if it were, this is what it would be like.